Living is too hard and dying is easy

It's hard
You know?
waiting
breathing
sitting
living

it's easy
just to
adventure
experience
feel
die

Because waiting takes too long
Because when do you know when to feel?
Because everyone always says
Good things come to those who wait
But do they really?

i've waited all my life
to feel loved and appreciated
i've waited 14 years and 7 months
i've waited
and waited
...
but nothing ever happened

maybe it was all just a fairytale
a lie
that society
and life
and people
made up
so that they could make a facade
for why they stood there so long
without going anywhere
without doing anything

maybe they needed a reason to be living
because i know that living is hard
i'm a 14-year-old that doesn't know what to do
but i'm 14
imagine the 32-year old that has no clue
and is crying because they don't
and they're too confused
because living is too hard

the world wants us to be sorted out and ready
by the time we've lived for 21 years or so
but when have we really lived?
i don't think that anyone could have ever really lived for 21 years
that's too long
and living is too hard
if anything at all
we've been dead for 21 years
because living is too hard
dying is easy

and sometimes
the young kids like me
we find living is too hard
and we can't take it because we're fragile
and we become so entangled int he thought that
our lives
are nothing
that we wanted it to be
nothing that we
expected it to be
and so we find out that dying is easy
and that's how we decide to go
not at the hands of nature
oh no
that's no fun
not at the hands of others
oh no
that's horrible
but at the thoughts of ourselves
because who will be there
to stop our thoughts
from overflowing
onto a canvas
or a book
or a
life
?

no one
because living is too hard
and
dying is easy

and waiting and sitting and breathing
are all too hard, too difficult

and feeling and experiencing and adventuring
are all too easy, too bland

because living is too hard
and
dying
is easy.